Last Blog Post. EVER!

Okay, perhaps ever in all-caps is a minor exaggeration. Anyways, I'm leaving here shortly. Here are a few final, and ever-so-random thoughts:

-The last episode of Office that I will see for two years was the premiere of season five. And given the ending of the episode, its kinda like the perfect series finale for me.

-Zupas is one of the greatest places to eat ever! Try it!

-I don't mind not going into a depression, but the government bailout of the economy kinda sounds like socialism to me.

-Best show on TV none of you are watching: Bones. Wednesdays on FOX at seven.

Here is my mission address:

Elder Andrew Russell Hansen
California Fresno Mission
Provo Missionary Training Center
2005 N 900 E
Provo, UT 84604

A friend of mine is going to have her own password to my Facebook account (so I won't have any access to it (not that I would anyway!)) to keep it updated with addresses as I move about in the Fresno area. My MySpace is gone though (in case anybody out there actually still uses MySpace) Peace out.

Life right before a mission

I write often on this blog about things like television, movies, etc. The truth is I want to write more about myself. I sit down all the time to write a blog thats more personal and more about whats going on in my life. But every time I sit down to type it out...the words don't flow.

The truth is, I don't know how I feel about things. My emotions appear to be all over the place. Talking to a few close friends of mine, I guess going through a rough time happens to some other guys too before they leave.

There are a few specific things that have been bothering me, but the crux of all of it is that I won't be here anymore very, very soon. There are things I want to do, need to do, that I don't have time to do. Things that need fixing, people that need seeing, and I don't see how I can do it all. The confusion regarding a general lack of time has caused me to completely butcher the concept of time-management.

On top of all that, I feel like I'm squandering the time that I'm here by worrying about all this stuff. But I can't not worry about it. I think its in my genes. I can be care-free regarding many things, but when I get uptight about something, I really get uptight about it. Like to the point were my mood is destroyed entirely and I can't focus on anything else. In this case, its my previously mentioned thoughts above.

I want to enjoy the time I got. I just gotta figure out how to accept that things won't be ideal before I leave. Gotta love OCD.

That guy

Its safe to say that I am a big fan of Joss Whedon-related works, particularly Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Its also safe to say that I often relate real life goings-ons to Buffy, and because of how relatable that show is to real life is why I believe it was truly such a magnificent show.

But I'm not here to discuss what a great show it is or why you all should be watching it instead of whatever it is your doing. I'm here to talk about the couple you see here. Buffy and Riley.

For most fans of the show, Riley is not among their most liked Buffy characters, and the least liked of any of her boyfriends. Never much understood that myself. This is likely due to the fact that I really could relate to Riley. I got him, and I got how he felt. I felt like I was watching my life only it was on a TV and it had vampires and I do not possess any where near the physical strength that Riley had. But other than that...I really just felt like he was me. Everything he went through with Buffy, I just got it. I am definitely the Riley, not the Angel of the story.

To people who understand Buffy, you probably just learned somethin bout me. For the rest of you, this will read just more like my usual rant about great TV. Which again, you should follow my tastes in television. I ain't gonna lie, I have FANTASTIC tastes in television. This could quickly turn into a rant about how amazing Battlestar Galactica and how ashamed you all should be about judging it, so I will go to bed now. Late, late.

Oregon!

I have never once in my life ever thought about taking a trip to Oregon. Not once. I imagine that thats probably the way it is for most people. But seriously folks...Oregon is fantastic. Its beautiful, they have no sales tax, and Tillamook is there. Can it get better than that? I submit to you that it cannot.


It was such a great family trip. Emphasis there on the "family" part, as also there with us was my aunt and uncle, my cousin, his wife, and their two little kids. So as much as I loved being there in Oregon, having some space again is quite nice. But seriously, what a freakin amazing place. Oregon, who knew?

The Ten things blog

This has been circulating blogs for a long while, decided I would finally do it...

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
1. I have no idea what to write here to you, I have so many things I could say to you. But ultimately, I can't even write what I wish to say most. But we'll be fine, I know it.
2. I don't see you much anymore, but I still consider you one of my best friends. I talk to you more than I do with most people.
3. The past between us makes me uncomfortable around you. I don't know how to act when you're around.
4. You have been one of the few consistant friends I have had, but sometimes I wish there was more to our friendship than that.
5. You really saved me man. My life is completely different because of your influence and friendship.
6. What happened to you? I don't know how to help you anymore.
7. You were young and I was a stupid high school senior. I'm so sorry.
8. I will never know how to explain things to you and I probably won't get the chance. I hope you're well.
9. You have got a path again. It wasn't the one I expected but I'm glad your moving in a direction that works for you.
10. You've always been around whenever a Little 'cease or Subway run is needed, or a serious conversation. I'm glad things are going well for ya.

NINE things about yourself:
1. I'm generally easy going, but there are some things that I am fiercely uptight about.
2. I love seeing new things in the world.
3. Sometimes I prefer very much to keep to myself.
4. Occasionally I enjoy a lot of company.
5. I don't enjoy my work quite as much as I used to.
6. I am a mate drinker.
7. I play video games. Its the truth.
8. I have way too many favorite TV shows.
9. I'm OCD yet my room is always a disaster.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Honesty.
2. Respect.
3. Loyalty.
4. Good music tastes.
5. Good self-confidence and ambition.
6. Tolerance for my nerdy-ness.
7. A passion for life.
8. A love of something Joss Whedon related.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. Is this what growing up is like?
2. Why can't I let go?
3. Am I really ready?
4. Who am i?
5. Why did you write that?
6. Why does my phone suck so much?
7. Why does my head hurt?

SIX things you wish you never did:
1. Let my music skills drop off.
2. Did stupid stuff in high school.
3. Stay up too late sometimes.
4. Not stay up late enough sometimes.
5. Not do enough with my social life at times.
6. Bought an ice cream treat thing from the ice cream man even when my mom told me not to.

FIVE turn offs:
1. No Respect.
2. No care at all for cleanliness or appearance
3. Lack of dedication.
4. Lack of self confidence.
5. No tastes for quality movies/tv shows.

FOUR turn ons:
1. Humor.
2. Kindness.
3. Open-minded.
4. Zest for life.

THREE smileys that describe your life:
1. :-)
2. -_-
3. :^D

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. Go to europe.
2. Get married.

ONE confession:
1. I had a massive Mountain Dew addiction once.

"Things have changed for me..."

Life is moving right along.

Wow.

I can't believe how far I've come. Everything I've been able to experience in these past nineteen years. They were pretty good years. I will give them that much.

But I feel like I, Andrew, have become a very different person just within the last couple months. I feel like I've grown up fast. Had to make a couple tough choices. Had to make a lot of preparations. I think I'm finally growing up.

It's scary. I will say that about growing up.

I have changed a bit. I don't know if the new Andrew fits into places that the old one didn't. I'm also trying to be more honest with myself and everyone I deal with.

Again, it's all very scary. But it's all very empowering, knowing that I'm maturing.

So I guess in that regard I'm still a teenager: I can't make up my mind.

"How do you feel?"

I think I'm okay. I mean...it's weird, sad and stuff...but I'm not super depressed and drowning myself in caffeine.

I feel fine.

Is that okay?

Misconceptions, misunderstandings, and another "mis-" word

Being someone who probably has obsessive compulsive disorder, I often worry about whether someone is getting my full meaning. Also being someone who has never been very good in social situations, I have trouble saying things the way I wish.

I sometimes just seriously feel bad for people talking to me. I can be really weird to talk to sometimes. Its...a strange combination. Kinda crappy.

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Notes on television *Spoilers*:

-Office : Jim has the ring. OH MY GOSH!
-How I Met Your Mother : Robyn and Barney... OH MY GOSH!
-Reaper : Comes back tonight. At 8. PLEASE WATCH!